Why Must I Be Perfect?

Have just felt down when you first woke up? When you first opened your eyes? I dont often, but I did today.  My throat was scratchy. The underwire in my bra was broken and it was poking me.  And when I stood on the scale it said the same number as the day before..even though I had tried my best.  I felt so frustrated, like I was tired of trying because it just wasn't doing any good.  

It wasn’t just about weight....it was an old fear that had crept back in.  Im a type-A kind of chick with some type B traits. So when Im pushing and achieving my goals I feel great. But on those off days, when I dont feel 100% and when I dont see results right away I begin to doubt myself.  

And then that little voice whispers.... What if you can't do this? What if you fail...and people see you?  What if all of this work youre doing is for nothing?  What if you are not...enough?  

Wow, I really dont like that little voice, becauase in the past it has stopped me from my dreams. It stopped me from moving forward. 

But I found a way to get past it!  I remember MY TRUTH..and sometimes I make a new one. I have to speak to the God inside of me and ask it to come out and help me get a grip. I have to remind myself of all I've overcome. 

I have to admit that I feel sorry for myself for a minute but then I start to remember.  And I say to myself ....

Do you know how many things I've overcome? Do you know that I beat cancer? I beat cancer! Do you know that I was an orphan and yet I have a couple college degrees? Do you know that I used to make bad choices about men and love. I was married to an addict but now Im with a man who loves me!  Do you remember how many times I wanted to quit...but I didn't!  Do you know who I am?

When that voice starts talking, you gotta  go back and dig deep! Look at your childhood, look at yoru adulthood..look at all the times you've had to be strong!  Some people didnt make it this far. YOU DID!

You need to say to yourself....I AM BADASSERY at it's best, baby!!  I don't have to be perfect. I only need to keep trying.  That is enough!

I am enough. God is in me so I am actually MORE than enough. Look at all I've overcome.

So my darling...when your little voice tries to whisper that you are not good enough...you talk right back to it and you tell it who you are! You say....Do you know who I am!?! Look at all I've overcome.  

I don't need to be perfect everyday. I just need to keep going! God is in me and I am enough!